Our Lil Darlins

De so called GSS is back...ppl r already makin themselves bz wif shoppin,take for eg, ma sis n bro-in-law had already indulged themselves to de GSS. As for me, well eversince I haf 2 beautiful kids, ma attention had bin diverted to them...I spend more on their stuff rather than on maself...B4 I was married, ma fellow classmates(those married kakak2)told us(we youngsters)dat,once u r married n wif kids u tend to spend on them rather than urself...At first I was skeptical...Nolah, cannot be, but now I'm already a mother to 2 kids n I noe I've bin spendin more on them but wat de heck,I like it.Anyway ma source of shoppin is not at those big malls,its de internet!I can login for hours checkin out de auction for kids stuff...Its convenient n most of all its affordable(sometimes u can even bargain for de items).But there r also a few scam who r not genuine sellers, they r juz there to cheat.So beware wen u go online shoppin...Anyway who says u nid to buy wen u can enjoy urself juz by window shoppin to de GSS!!!Well dats wat I do to satisfy ma desire of shoppin!!!Ahhhh...if only I am a tai-tai...dream on...

Another lazy day at home...As a day goes by, I'm gettin more n more bored, not knowin wat to do...Help! Help! I dyin of boredom here...For de past few days,(wen I'm at home wif ma kids)I tot of watchin ma old time favourite hindi movie dat is Kuch Kuch Hota Hai but I juz couldn't find it...Either it is being misplaced or its lost...I still haf others like Dil To Pagal Hailah, Pardeslah, Baadshahlah but don't feel like watchin them...Eventhou u may say, its all Shah Rukh Khan movies wat but I find KKHH is xtra special...Actually all his movies r special in a way for every each of them but its juz me wantin to watch KKHHlah...Since I think I've misplace it so I decided not to watch any of de other movies until I find KKHH...So at times wen I feel bored I play Neopets...U may think dat I'm being childish but there r also other adults who play it...Eventhou its meant for kids, but theres always a kid in me no matter how old I am...So I keep maself bz by playin de games in Neopets land, feed ma pet(ma pet name is Hazbat tau!),collectin points so dat I can buy food or stuff wif de points for ma Hazbat.If I get tired or playin Neopets, I check de yahoo auction to see whether theres good bargain out there...Speakin of bargains, anyone feel like lettin go any bookcase n chest drawer? Me been searchin de auction for them. Me want de bookcase for ma books which I feel its all over de house n a chest drawer for ma kids clothes...Actually, we bought a drawer n I tot I could squeeze all ma kids' clothes into de drawer. Apparently theres more clothes to be squeezed in so now de drawer is packed wif clothes...So if anyone feel like lettin go any old furniture do gif me a peepz...

Eversince I gave birth, whenever Herman works in de mornin shift I'll stay at home wif ma two kids...Stayin at home wif them is no big joke...I nid to be on de move most of de time...Whenever adik cry abg will also cry seekin attention n vice versa...Its juz like havin twins coz frm wat ppl told me, wen one twin is cryin, de other twin will also cry but in ma case, one is a toddler while de other one is an infant n de cry of a toddler is deafenin as to compare to an infant, which could irritate or agitate u...I noe dat abg is jealous of adik eversince adik came home...Abg always distance himself frm adik,do touch n go things towards adik n many morelah...Theres even once wen I was breastfeedin adik on de rite(sorrylah if its a bit obscene but juz tot of sharin it), abg came cryin askin to be carried, so I pulled him up n let him sit on my left lap. But guess wat abg did de moment he sees his adik? While adik was bz suckin, he pushed her head. As my hands were full at dat moment(one hand supportin adik while de other hand supportin abg)de only thing I could do is shout at abg. It didn't end there.Next abg grab 'de thing' adik was suckin n of cozlah adik also suck even harder I had to let go of abg n pulled his hand away.Whenever I scold abg, I fil sad coz I noe he doesn't understand why now he needs to share everythin wif adik. Eventhou he doesn't want to share wif adik, he still let adik use his old stuff n de funny thing is whenever adik is not usin it, abg will sit on it n rock himself. But till now abg doesn't want to be acknowledged as abg eventhou we haf bin callin him dat b4 adik was born.He refuses to come wen we call him dat. So I make it a point to play wif him n cuddle him n kisses him n tell him I love him whenever adik is fast asleep.My only hope is dat when he grows up, he doesn't hate his adik but love his adik dearly...

Nur Batrisyah Binte Herman Rashidi ( 26.04.2006 )

Selamat Hari Ibu mak...semoga roh mak sentiasa dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan ahli syurga...Amin...